Childhood Abilities...My Visitors Part II
It all just always worked automatically within me, so impressions just seemed like thoughts I would have, but with age, I realized it was not my dialect or thoughts that I was even thinking, some were actually externally spoken and others were internal like an inner voice, much like your own conscious can function, but again, as a child who wasn't yet exposed to or aware of many matters, these inner dialogues had very mature and grown up and very intelligent content for a child who was often very distracted with simply being a child, which included not being very good at math, losing and having to re-trace my own steps I'd taken prior to ever find my shoes when getting dressed for school, forgetful, outspoken and not always right about what I said, thought when thinking as a normal child, when no other more insightful beings were advising or communicating and transferring their own awareness to me, I otherwise carried myself and behaved as a child with no extra inner dialogues, extrasensory perception or impressions of any kind unless and until they took place.
It was very random and so it seemed to me to just be what we all would experience and felt very natural and it truly didn't occur to me that anything was out of the ordinary.
Looking back, as I have done a LOT in life to even begin to understand, label or translate what was/is/has led to or what resulted...
There were no negative encounters, no negative overwhelming feelings associated with the elder and passed family members. I did know that I was not alone and FELT a very STRONG FEELING of always being watched a lot of the time. I also realize and successfully had conveyed to me that it wasn't ONLY me being looked after, watched over, guarded, protected and loved by them.
I learned to deeply look forward to and truly ENJOY the communication, the connection, the dialogues and the company. They very much made me feel loved and reminded me that family LASTS beyond LIFE on this Earthly plane and reaches well beyond ONE expression of existence for us. They joked and made me laugh, they were amusing, pleasant, very authoritative while also being Light-natured and I found myself staying more and more aware of their continual presence and trying harder to be good and stay in their good graces, I didn't want to be a disappointment to them. I know that's part of life and living...there will be disappointments.
I found myself wanting to be a better me, a happy me, a satisfied me. My intentions and feeling of self-worth increased during that time. My sense of conscience went HIGH also.
It wasn't exclusive to me, everyone in our immediate family was being watched over and looked upon. So, why did they do it?
I take it to mean that because I was sensitive in a Spiritual manner and could detect the ancestors and was as open to them as I was made me easiest for our family's passed relatives and representatives, or elders, of the family to be and remain connected with all of us.
I was never afraid, there was never any hooey or creepy awkward make my skin crawl feelings EXCEPT I could always feel myself being CLOSELY WATCHED by someone, and often, an entire group of someone that I could only see inside my mind, but I also later began to hear some messages externally, and they were actually spoken aloud, and I perceived them apart from within my OWN mind and different from MY thoughts and altogether differently than the inner voice impressions that seemed to me to merely BE automatic and random internal thoughts or ideas that would just form and occur to me.
In my school aged years, I began to feel watched by these Spiritual family members for MOST of the time that I was at home. I would step away from our family room, from the presence of my LIVING family members, and out of a group gathering where there was silence, a stilled and quiet state of mind and I was still wide open to what would come, so I began to experience a spoken and external dialogue between some of the former family members rather than ONLY having an inner voice and receiving insight as inner thought or ideas that it seemed to be that I would think up myself.
I began to be able to recognize the sensation I would feel that someone was near and I began waiting and listening when I was alone and in a peaceful and still state, the most open to receive communication.
These former family members also grew fond of me and some of them would come so close to being present among our family that I could perceive their energies and essences in specific rooms I would be in at the time, some spoke as close to speaking aloud as you and I do, so were strong in will and intent, as well as capability.
I learned that they weren't there for any ONE of us, it was centered around our entire family. I could differentiate the essences, whether male or female, and began to be aware of which specific member of our family their heart and awareness, focus, intent or attention was centering around.
I felt a fondness for my dad come from a male energy that I believe to be our great great grandfather who was in one of the very old frames and very faded and fragile family portraits that was in a huge frame that looked copper or brass toned.
For years, that picture hung above my grandmother's table, chair and dresser. One day I was listening to the group and I was shown several of my visitors and he is one that I was given an image of. That verified that they were, INDEED, our family members.
It can be many things that brought them, I understand that. I think what KEPT them around for as long as they stayed CONSTANT, however, WAS SOMETHING VERY SPECIFIC.
Understand that they literally spent MY CHILDHOOD working closely with me so SOMEONE from the family got their intended message, and ensuring that it would be carried out or whatever needed to happen WOULD really COME ABOUT.
Granny was a very calm, kind and
extremely patient and caring woman who we never saw raise up her temper or cuss or swear at or to or even about anyone. She had a way about her and SUCH grace that, to this day, STILL just really stands apart from any others, and that I can only envy.
I knew I could not fill her shoes, EVER, so I didn't ever try with my own children. Instead of attempting to be someone I just am NOT, I let my kids know that grace and that patience and that mild and kind manner to be hers. I told them my sister and my experiences with her, family stories, memories we had growing up and those we have until she departed, AND I DID THIS pure intent for family, so they COULD AND WOULD not only have HIGH regard for her, for such kindness and strength and gracefulness, but also so she was honored as the MATRIARCH OF OUR ENTIRE FAMILY as the PEACEKEEPER and the FOUNDATION of our family, for our lifetime. It wasn't an exaggeration and it wasn't beyond the scope of their own knowledge and experience, in that they also KNEW HER and knew her gentle nature and her inner calm and strength.
The Spiritual beings, family members, guides all held her in high esteem and regard, it seemed. I found ones who had their favorites, or who would point out our wrongdoings or simply questioning a certain behavior or character flaw, or challenging a tantrum or stressed and strained relations due to lack of greater understanding or improper attitude...of course, they oversaw us for years, on a day to day basis...they saw all of us-the good parts, the badness, the reactions, the enotions, our attitudes, intent, beliefs, thpughts, etc. I saw one of them point out something going on between my dad and my sister, when they butted heads as she was behaving as a teenager who was growing and trying to find her new place in the family, in the world, in life as more mature and trying to claim a an individual sense of independence.
It was very random and so it seemed to me to just be what we all would experience and felt very natural and it truly didn't occur to me that anything was out of the ordinary.
Looking back, as I have done a LOT in life to even begin to understand, label or translate what was/is/has led to or what resulted...
There were no negative encounters, no negative overwhelming feelings associated with the elder and passed family members. I did know that I was not alone and FELT a very STRONG FEELING of always being watched a lot of the time. I also realize and successfully had conveyed to me that it wasn't ONLY me being looked after, watched over, guarded, protected and loved by them.
I learned to deeply look forward to and truly ENJOY the communication, the connection, the dialogues and the company. They very much made me feel loved and reminded me that family LASTS beyond LIFE on this Earthly plane and reaches well beyond ONE expression of existence for us. They joked and made me laugh, they were amusing, pleasant, very authoritative while also being Light-natured and I found myself staying more and more aware of their continual presence and trying harder to be good and stay in their good graces, I didn't want to be a disappointment to them. I know that's part of life and living...there will be disappointments.
I found myself wanting to be a better me, a happy me, a satisfied me. My intentions and feeling of self-worth increased during that time. My sense of conscience went HIGH also.
It wasn't exclusive to me, everyone in our immediate family was being watched over and looked upon. So, why did they do it?
I take it to mean that because I was sensitive in a Spiritual manner and could detect the ancestors and was as open to them as I was made me easiest for our family's passed relatives and representatives, or elders, of the family to be and remain connected with all of us.
I was never afraid, there was never any hooey or creepy awkward make my skin crawl feelings EXCEPT I could always feel myself being CLOSELY WATCHED by someone, and often, an entire group of someone that I could only see inside my mind, but I also later began to hear some messages externally, and they were actually spoken aloud, and I perceived them apart from within my OWN mind and different from MY thoughts and altogether differently than the inner voice impressions that seemed to me to merely BE automatic and random internal thoughts or ideas that would just form and occur to me.
In my school aged years, I began to feel watched by these Spiritual family members for MOST of the time that I was at home. I would step away from our family room, from the presence of my LIVING family members, and out of a group gathering where there was silence, a stilled and quiet state of mind and I was still wide open to what would come, so I began to experience a spoken and external dialogue between some of the former family members rather than ONLY having an inner voice and receiving insight as inner thought or ideas that it seemed to be that I would think up myself.
I began to be able to recognize the sensation I would feel that someone was near and I began waiting and listening when I was alone and in a peaceful and still state, the most open to receive communication.
These former family members also grew fond of me and some of them would come so close to being present among our family that I could perceive their energies and essences in specific rooms I would be in at the time, some spoke as close to speaking aloud as you and I do, so were strong in will and intent, as well as capability.
I learned that they weren't there for any ONE of us, it was centered around our entire family. I could differentiate the essences, whether male or female, and began to be aware of which specific member of our family their heart and awareness, focus, intent or attention was centering around.
I felt a fondness for my dad come from a male energy that I believe to be our great great grandfather who was in one of the very old frames and very faded and fragile family portraits that was in a huge frame that looked copper or brass toned.
For years, that picture hung above my grandmother's table, chair and dresser. One day I was listening to the group and I was shown several of my visitors and he is one that I was given an image of. That verified that they were, INDEED, our family members.
It can be many things that brought them, I understand that. I think what KEPT them around for as long as they stayed CONSTANT, however, WAS SOMETHING VERY SPECIFIC.
Understand that they literally spent MY CHILDHOOD working closely with me so SOMEONE from the family got their intended message, and ensuring that it would be carried out or whatever needed to happen WOULD really COME ABOUT.
Granny was a very calm, kind and
extremely patient and caring woman who we never saw raise up her temper or cuss or swear at or to or even about anyone. She had a way about her and SUCH grace that, to this day, STILL just really stands apart from any others, and that I can only envy.
I knew I could not fill her shoes, EVER, so I didn't ever try with my own children. Instead of attempting to be someone I just am NOT, I let my kids know that grace and that patience and that mild and kind manner to be hers. I told them my sister and my experiences with her, family stories, memories we had growing up and those we have until she departed, AND I DID THIS pure intent for family, so they COULD AND WOULD not only have HIGH regard for her, for such kindness and strength and gracefulness, but also so she was honored as the MATRIARCH OF OUR ENTIRE FAMILY as the PEACEKEEPER and the FOUNDATION of our family, for our lifetime. It wasn't an exaggeration and it wasn't beyond the scope of their own knowledge and experience, in that they also KNEW HER and knew her gentle nature and her inner calm and strength.
The Spiritual beings, family members, guides all held her in high esteem and regard, it seemed. I found ones who had their favorites, or who would point out our wrongdoings or simply questioning a certain behavior or character flaw, or challenging a tantrum or stressed and strained relations due to lack of greater understanding or improper attitude...of course, they oversaw us for years, on a day to day basis...they saw all of us-the good parts, the badness, the reactions, the enotions, our attitudes, intent, beliefs, thpughts, etc. I saw one of them point out something going on between my dad and my sister, when they butted heads as she was behaving as a teenager who was growing and trying to find her new place in the family, in the world, in life as more mature and trying to claim a an individual sense of independence.
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